Crazy days…

“I know I’ve not posted in a long while, but I suppose it is time for an update.

 

On the quiceanera front, my niece’s event will be held in April. We have been truly blessed to have found a woman who will not only do all the decorating, but will also cater, serve, made a cake, found a reasonably priced DJ, and will also do clean up. So all the stress of a few months ago, was all taken away with just one simple phone call and it was done. I may use her for my daughter’s in a couple of years.

My sister’s wedding is going to be next year. Yay! I’m excited about it but sad at the same time. She won’t be around here as much as she is now. Of course, I have a year and a half to not think about it… Or to just think about it. I wonder which one will win out.

My children are growing like weeds and I am sure they will soon outgrow me. I am surprised at the wit my children have and also how quickly I am losing my own sanity at times when I am around them.”

 

Well, all that has happened and so much more…

Been busy again… dealing with life as some of you may have read already. Mom has cancer again. I’m not sure if I can deal with things again, but I know I will HAVE to. She is my mother and I love her so much. I’m not sure I ever believed anything bad could happen to her. She is mom. Ever present. Ever loving. Ever mom!

How can I help her when I am struggling?

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Writing

As I write for the Cherished BlogFest 2016 #CBF16, I find I am writing more and more. I’ve had to step away from the first project, because it has taken on a life of its own. It has gone beyond the 500 allotted words and I’m not even half way through it.

SIGH

So now, I’ve got started on another one. This one has potential to be a lengthy one too, but I’m going to try and reign it in. It seems my writing wants to tell longer stories, and as a writer, I’m bound to let it flow.

Listening to music helps me with my writing process, and right now I’m listening to a song that remembers me of a certain someone. I pray doing well, and loving life as I am trying to do myself.

“Candy” lyrics provided by AZlyrics

It’s a rainy afternoon
In 1990
The big city geez it’s been 20 years-
Candy-you were so fine

Beautiful beautiful
Girl from the north
You burned my heart
With a flickering torch
I had a dream that no one else could see
You gave me love for free

candy, candy , Candy I can’t let you go
All my life you’re haunting me
I loved you so

Candy, candy , Candy I can’t let you go
Life is crazy
Candy baby

Yeah, well it hurt me real bad when you left
I’m glad you got out
But I miss you
I’ve had a hole in my heart
For so long
I’ve learned to fake it and
Just smile along

Down on the street
Those men are all the same
I need a love
Not games
Not games

Candy, Candy, Candy I can’t let you go
All my life you’re haunting me
I loved you so
Candy, Candy , Candy I can’t let you go
Life is crazy
I Know baby
Candy baby

UOU UOU UOU
Candy, Candy, Candy I can’t let you go
All my life you’re haunting me
I loved you so

CANDY CANDY CANDY
life is crazy
candy baby

candy baby,
candy, candy

Cherished Blogfest

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Sign up for the CHERISHED BLOGFEST if you haven’t already. July 29-31st, a  Max of 500 words on an object you cherish. More than 60 bloggers have signed up already. Get your name in Now!  

This is the first year I’ve hear of it, and I’m looking forward to participating in this event. Something I cherish, I do believe I know what I will be blogging about!

Looking forward to reading other bloggers post!!

 

Neb!!

Never Enough

I’m posting from my cell and haven’t mastered the art of songs on here yet.

It’s just a venting post! !

Five Finger Death Punch – Never Enough:

“Never Enough”

I’m so fed up with everyone around me
No one seems to care
I’m just so far gone and nothing’s gonna change
I’ll never be the same
It’s always do this, do that, everything they want to
I don’t wanna live that way (No!)
Every chance they get they’re always pushing me away

It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
No matter what I say
It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
I’ll never be what you want me to be

It’s all so messed up and no one ever listens
Everyone’s deranged
I’m just so fucked up and I’m never gonna change
I wanna lay it all to waste
They’re always say this, say that, nothing that you want to
I don’t wanna live that way (No!)
Every chance they get they’re always shoving me aside

It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
No matter what I say
It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
I’ll never be what you want me to be
I’M DONE!

In the end we’re all just chalk lines on the concrete
Drawn only to be washed away
For the time that I’ve been given
I am what I am

I’d rather hate you for everything you are
Than ever love you for something you are not
I’d rather you hate me for everything I am
Than have you love me for something that I can’t

It’s never enough, it’s never enough
No matter what I say
It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
No matter who I try to be
It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
No matter how I try to change
It’s never enough, never never enough
I’ll never be what you want me to be

M.I.A.

In life, if this thing I am living is life, there are times when it is on fast forward. The last month or so has been in such a state. I feel as though the buttons of my life have been stuck, it is unfortunate that lately, it has been stuck on fast forward.

Just a blur…

 

Nothing makes sense and if I make sense of it, then I don’t make sense. Does that make sense?

Such is this thing called Life.