No Time For Games

My heart is not a playground, go play somewhere else.

My heart is not a playground, go play somewhere else.

 

What do you do when you want to be loved? When the feeling of being lonely is too much to bear for yet another day. It is during this time when a person is no longer looking for the right person to come into their lives, but any person to come into their lives. This is called… desperation.

Desperation can lead to the worse relationships and some bad heartache. When you open yourself up to love, for some it is whole hearted. Of course, there those who playing with other’s emotions is what makes their day.

I am hurting today. Why, because I chose to think I was feeling something for someone who clearly was not serious about me. This game of peek-a-boo is just that… a game. I am no spring chicken; I am a grown woman and have no time for games of the heart. My heart has been hurt too many times in the past to deal with someone who just wants to play games.

Like the photo about says…

My heart is not a playground, go play somewhere else!!

~Neb

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Forgetfulness or Procrastination…. Hmmm

Which is it that most happens? The former or the latter?

I find it is both which plague my actions.

As I increase in years, (ugh… how I miss my youth) there are many things which have begun to slip my mind: date, time, year, children’s names, my name, how old I am. Okay, maybe not that bad, yet. Nothing is worse than forgetting something like not renewing your driver’s license! Yes, I had that happen to me. I will be among the many who will need to actually go down and redo everything. I do believe. I am overjoyed by the prospect.

Of course, had I renewed when I first remembered… I would not have gone through what I will soon be going through. I remembered a full five months in advance! But as a professional procrastinator, I felt no need to rush. *sigh*  Such is the life of me.

BUT, I refuse to stay on the negative aspect of today… which was finding out my license was expired and seeing the good. I will be getting  new phone! Hooray for me! Of course, it is only because I have been without a phone for over a week, since it has chosen to slowly die. No amount of Phone ER helped.

Perhaps my new phone will bring me joy as I wait my turn at the license place.

Only time will tell.

So I leave you now with a song I enjoy… about time.

Time after Time by Cyndi Lauper  video provided by YouTube

 

“Time After Time”
Lyrics provided by AZ Lyrics

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Caught up in circles confusion –
Is nothing new
Flashback – warm nights –
Almost left behind
Suitcases of memories,
Time after –

Sometimes you picture me –
I’m walking too far ahead
You’re calling to me, I can’t hear
What you’ve said –
Then you say – go slow –
I fall behind –
The second hand unwinds

[Chorus:]
If you’re lost you can look – and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you – I’ll be waiting
Time after time

After my picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows – you’re wondering
If I’m OK
Secrets stolen from deep inside
The drum beats out of time –

[Chorus:]
If you’re lost…

You said go slow –
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds –

[Chorus:]
If you’re lost…
…Time after time
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time

Family Sunday

Days like today put a huge smile on my face. Sundays are family days. It can be just eating out for lunch, or watching a movie with the folks.

Today was a great day. It was family BBQ day.

The fire and smoke smelled great.

My old BBQ pit, if you can believe it, I actually put this thing together with a butter knife, a few years ago! LOL

My old BBQ pit, if you can believe it, I actually put this thing together with a butter knife, a few years ago! LOL

We had beef fajitas, chicken fajitas, baby back ribs, short ribs, stuffed mushrooms, stuffed jalapeños, sausage, and grilled zucchini.

Mmmmm Zucchini and squash on the grill.

Mmmmm
Zucchini and squash on the grill.

Beef fajitas, stuffed mushrooms and sausage.

Beef fajitas, stuffed mushrooms and sausage.

My grandmother was here enjoying the afternoon. It has been a long time since she has been out here. It was nice listening to her talk telling old stories.

The kids were running around playing with bubbles (ah Bubbles) and shooting play guns. Bubbles are so pretty and the kids enjoyed chasing them. At one point, they were trying to see who could blow the biggest bubble.

Family is important and days like this remind me of that fact.

~ Loving my family ~ DA

Roses

Today I was sitting at the dining room table staring at a beautiful bouquet of roses; eleven red and one white. There were originally twelve red, but one was given to my grandmother for her birthday. The white one was snagged away from my sister’s co-worker.

These are not my roses. The roses were sent to my sister from her sweet and romantic boyfriend. It was a small part of her Valentine’s Day gift. I told her she would get roses, chocolate and most likely jewelry. I got three out of three.

I’ve often wondered why we give roses. Yes they are beautiful, but they die. They are short lived.

Red Roses

Red Roses

I’ve often wondered why we give roses. Yes they are beautiful, but they die. They are short lived.

If the roses are suppose to symbolize the love someone feels for another, do I really want something that is beautiful for only a short time?

I look at them now, and they have already begun to wilt.

White roses Left is fresh alive Right is blah and dying

White roses
Left is fresh alive
Right is blah and dying

The white rose is actually very sick looking.

There is one rose. It has bloomed beautifully, but I know it too will soon die.

As a hopeless romantic, I want a love that will last. I don’t need roses, candy, or jewelry (don’t get me wrong, they are nice) to show romance.

Romance and love are picked wild flowers, a sweet note in my desk, a look from a crowded room, a text with just a smiley face… All of these show love at no cost. These are things which can happen any day of the year, month, or week. Why does it have to be on a special day? Valentine’s Day. Mother’s Day. Birthdays. What about Just Because it’s Wednesday?

~Hopelessly Romantic ~ DA

The Moon

The Moon

The Moon
As seen through the TheSkyX First Light Edition Program

For Christmas, my son got a telescope. We took it out the first night, but it has been either too cold or too cloudy. Just yesterday, I was given the disc to install the program onto my laptop.

It was so cool to zoom in on the moon. The program allows the sky to be seen in fast forward or in rewind. This makes the sky look as if it is moving just for you. It was pretty awesome. Love the pic too. It was taken from the program.

It is inspiring to see the moon so close.

My kind of day

Overcast sky at the park.

Overcast sky at the park.

This morning as I was making my way to the bathroom, I discovered a wonderful thing. It was a overcast outside!

This was a wonderful thing, because I love overcast days. There was a cool breeze blowing and I just wanted to sit outside and enjoy it! If there had been a slight mist in the air, it would have been a perfect day.

Hope everyone enjoyed their day.

~DA