No Time For Games

My heart is not a playground, go play somewhere else.

My heart is not a playground, go play somewhere else.

 

What do you do when you want to be loved? When the feeling of being lonely is too much to bear for yet another day. It is during this time when a person is no longer looking for the right person to come into their lives, but any person to come into their lives. This is called… desperation.

Desperation can lead to the worse relationships and some bad heartache. When you open yourself up to love, for some it is whole hearted. Of course, there those who playing with other’s emotions is what makes their day.

I am hurting today. Why, because I chose to think I was feeling something for someone who clearly was not serious about me. This game of peek-a-boo is just that… a game. I am no spring chicken; I am a grown woman and have no time for games of the heart. My heart has been hurt too many times in the past to deal with someone who just wants to play games.

Like the photo about says…

My heart is not a playground, go play somewhere else!!

~Neb

Forgetfulness or Procrastination…. Hmmm

Which is it that most happens? The former or the latter?

I find it is both which plague my actions.

As I increase in years, (ugh… how I miss my youth) there are many things which have begun to slip my mind: date, time, year, children’s names, my name, how old I am. Okay, maybe not that bad, yet. Nothing is worse than forgetting something like not renewing your driver’s license! Yes, I had that happen to me. I will be among the many who will need to actually go down and redo everything. I do believe. I am overjoyed by the prospect.

Of course, had I renewed when I first remembered… I would not have gone through what I will soon be going through. I remembered a full five months in advance! But as a professional procrastinator, I felt no need to rush. *sigh*  Such is the life of me.

BUT, I refuse to stay on the negative aspect of today… which was finding out my license was expired and seeing the good. I will be getting  new phone! Hooray for me! Of course, it is only because I have been without a phone for over a week, since it has chosen to slowly die. No amount of Phone ER helped.

Perhaps my new phone will bring me joy as I wait my turn at the license place.

Only time will tell.

So I leave you now with a song I enjoy… about time.

Time after Time by Cyndi Lauper  video provided by YouTube

 

“Time After Time”
Lyrics provided by AZ Lyrics

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Caught up in circles confusion –
Is nothing new
Flashback – warm nights –
Almost left behind
Suitcases of memories,
Time after –

Sometimes you picture me –
I’m walking too far ahead
You’re calling to me, I can’t hear
What you’ve said –
Then you say – go slow –
I fall behind –
The second hand unwinds

[Chorus:]
If you’re lost you can look – and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you – I’ll be waiting
Time after time

After my picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows – you’re wondering
If I’m OK
Secrets stolen from deep inside
The drum beats out of time –

[Chorus:]
If you’re lost…

You said go slow –
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds –

[Chorus:]
If you’re lost…
…Time after time
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time

Non-sense

Non-sense…

Is it just me or is there an abundance of it? Not only online, but in the people I come face to face with everyday.

Some people don’t know when to keep their mouths shut. How is it anyone’s business what another person is doing? If that other person has nothing to do with the busy-body? It amazes me.

This is exactly how rumors get started. UGH

Made me think of an old song from when I was young.

Rumors by Timex Social Club

Rumors   Lyrics provided by Songlyrics

How do rumors get started
They’re started by the jealous people
And they get mad seeing something
They had and somebody else is holding

They tell me that temptation is very hard to resist
But these wicked women, ooh, they just persist
Maybe you think it’s cute, but girl
I’m not impressed, I’ll tell you one time only
With my business please, don’t mess

When you look at all these rumors surrounding
Me every day I just need some time, some time
To get away from from all these rumors
I can’t take it no more, my best friend said
There’s one out now about me and the girl next door

Did you hear the one about Tina
Some say she’s much too loose
That came straight from a guy who claims
He’s tasted her juice, did you hear the one about Michael?
Some say he must be gay I tried to argue

But they said if he was straight
He wouldn’t move that way
Did you hear that one about Susan?
Some say she’s just a tease in a camisole
She’s six feet tall, she’ll knock you to your knees

When you look at all these rumors surrounding
Me every day I just need some time, some time
To get away from from all these rumors
I can’t take it no more, my best friend said
There’s one out now about me and the girl next door

I can’t go no place without somebody
Pointing a finger I can’t show my face
â€~Cause when it comes to rumors I’m a dead ringer
It seems from rumors I just can’t get away

I’ll bet there’ll even be rumors floating around on
Judgment Day I’ll think I’ll write my congressman
And tell him to pass a bill, so the next time they catch
Somebody starting rumors, shoot to kill

When you look at all these rumors surrounding
Me every day I just need some time, some time
To get away from from all these rumors
I can’t take it no more, my best friend said
There’s one out now about me and the girl next door

What’s mine is mine, I ain’t got time for rumors
In my life I’m a man who thinks, not a man who drinks
So please let me live my life, what’s mine is mine
I ain’t got time for rumors in my life

Look at all these rumors
I’m a man who thinks, not a man who drinks
So please let me live my life what’s mine is mine
I ain’t got time for rumors in my life

Look at all these rumors
I’m a man who thinks, not a man who drinks
So please let me live my life

When you look at all these rumors surrounding
Me every day I just need some time, some time
To get away from from all these rumors
I can’t take it no more, my best friend said
There’s one out now about me and the girl next door

When you look at all these rumors surrounding
Me every day I just need some time, some time
To get away from from all these rumors
I can’t take it no more, my best friend said
There’s one out now about me and the girl next door

Stop, stop spreading those rumors around
Stop, stop spreading the lies
Stop, stop spreading those rumors around
Stop, stop spreading the lies

Stop, stop spreading those rumors around
Stop, stop spreading the lies
Stop, stop spreading those rumors around
Stop, stop spreading the lies

Stop, stop spreading those rumors
Around stop, stop spreading the lies

Never Enough

I’m posting from my cell and haven’t mastered the art of songs on here yet.

It’s just a venting post! !

Five Finger Death Punch – Never Enough:

“Never Enough”

I’m so fed up with everyone around me
No one seems to care
I’m just so far gone and nothing’s gonna change
I’ll never be the same
It’s always do this, do that, everything they want to
I don’t wanna live that way (No!)
Every chance they get they’re always pushing me away

It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
No matter what I say
It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
I’ll never be what you want me to be

It’s all so messed up and no one ever listens
Everyone’s deranged
I’m just so fucked up and I’m never gonna change
I wanna lay it all to waste
They’re always say this, say that, nothing that you want to
I don’t wanna live that way (No!)
Every chance they get they’re always shoving me aside

It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
No matter what I say
It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
I’ll never be what you want me to be
I’M DONE!

In the end we’re all just chalk lines on the concrete
Drawn only to be washed away
For the time that I’ve been given
I am what I am

I’d rather hate you for everything you are
Than ever love you for something you are not
I’d rather you hate me for everything I am
Than have you love me for something that I can’t

It’s never enough, it’s never enough
No matter what I say
It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
No matter who I try to be
It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
No matter how I try to change
It’s never enough, never never enough
I’ll never be what you want me to be