UGH!

There are times when all I want to do is SCREAM!!!

scream

I feel like I’m losing my mind… or like it’s never been there at all.

There is a song that tells what I am feeling right now…

Five Finger Death Punch – Never Enough

“Never Enough”
Lyrics AZ Lyrics

I’m so fed up with everyone around me
No one seems to care
I’m just so far gone and nothing’s gonna change
I’ll never be the same
It’s always do this, do that, everything they want to
I don’t wanna live that way (No!)
Every chance they get they’re always pushing me away

It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
No matter what I say
It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
I’ll never be what you want me to be

It’s all so messed up and no one ever listens
Everyone’s deranged
I’m just so fucked up and I’m never gonna change
I wanna lay it all to waste
They’re always say this, say that, nothing that you want to
I don’t wanna live that way (No!)
Every chance they get they’re always shoving me aside

It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
No matter what I say
It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
I’ll never be what you want me to be
I’M DONE!

In the end we’re all just chalk lines on the concrete
Drawn only to be washed away
For the time that I’ve been given
I am what I am

I’d rather hate you for everything you are
Than ever love you for something you are not
I’d rather you hate me for everything I am
Than have you love me for something that I can’t

It’s never enough, it’s never enough
No matter what I say
It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
No matter who I try to be
It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
No matter how I try to change
It’s never enough, never never enough
I’ll never be what you want me to be

 

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My heart aches to have the clouds hiding my moods

To have rain fall disguising my own tears

Feeling the cool wet drops fall from the sky

Softly kissing my cheeks and eyes as I cry

Time seems to be at a standstill

My heart lost to an ache that seems to never end

A loneliness that consumes my inner being

Searching for a life, that has some meaning

Sighing deeply, I close my eyes

Thinking of times that have past

Has my time of happiness come and gone

Without my knowledge that it is done

Should I surrender to the darkness?

Would I even be missed?

In the darkness of what is my life

I search for what I am longing for

I knew what it was, at one point in time

But now, it’s blurred by dirt and grime

As time continues to pass

The edges have begun to fade completely

Life is never ending regardless of the outcome

Perhaps, it has been all said… and done.

©2011 Dellajes Anilom