Days… Nights… Which is Which?

Day?

Night?

Which is which?

Is it daytime right now? Is it night?

If not for the sun shining outside, I would not have known it was daytime. Darkness has become my best friend.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t much like sunlight. Okay, I don’t like it at all. It is only on very rare occasions that I am happy soaking up the sun’s rays from the window.  I much prefer cloudy days. But my favorite days… are misty, hazy days.

Maybe if there are some misty, hazy days my sleeping pattern will go back to normal. Perhaps normal isn’t all that great. Then again, I’ve never been normal.

Oh, and the dreams… some are bad… some are good… some are just strange.

Sleep… stop eluding me.

Here is a song I found that sort of fits my feelings.

Sort of.

Sleeping In – The Postal Service

Lyrics provided by AzLyrics

Last week I had the strangest dream
Where everything was exactly how it seemed
Where there was never any mystery of who shot John F. Kennedy
It was just a man with something to prove
Slightly bored and severely confused
He steadied his rifle with his target in the center
And became famous on that day in November

Don’t wake me I plan on sleeping
Don’t wake me I plan on sleeping in
Don’t wake me I plan on sleeping
Don’t wake me I plan on sleeping in

Again last night I had that strange dream
Where everything was exactly how it seemed
Where concerns about the world getting warmer
The people thought they were just being rewarded
For treating others as they’d like to be treated
For obeying stop signs and curing diseases
For mailing letters with the address of the sender
Now we can swim any day in November

Don’t wake me I plan on sleeping
(now we can swim any day in November)
Don’t wake me I plan on sleeping in
Don’t wake me I plan on sleeping
Don’t wake me I plan on sleeping in

[x3]
Don’t wake me I plan on sleeping in
Don’t wake me I plan on sleeping
OOo oOo oOo

[x2]
Don’t wake me I plan on sleeping in
Don’t wake me I plan on sleeping
OOo oOo oOo
(Don’t wake me I plan on sleeping in
Don’t wake me I plan on sleeping)

Don’t wake me I plan on sleeping in
Don’t wake me I plan on sleeping
OOo oOo oOo

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Non-sense

Non-sense…

Is it just me or is there an abundance of it? Not only online, but in the people I come face to face with everyday.

Some people don’t know when to keep their mouths shut. How is it anyone’s business what another person is doing? If that other person has nothing to do with the busy-body? It amazes me.

This is exactly how rumors get started. UGH

Made me think of an old song from when I was young.

Rumors by Timex Social Club

Rumors   Lyrics provided by Songlyrics

How do rumors get started
They’re started by the jealous people
And they get mad seeing something
They had and somebody else is holding

They tell me that temptation is very hard to resist
But these wicked women, ooh, they just persist
Maybe you think it’s cute, but girl
I’m not impressed, I’ll tell you one time only
With my business please, don’t mess

When you look at all these rumors surrounding
Me every day I just need some time, some time
To get away from from all these rumors
I can’t take it no more, my best friend said
There’s one out now about me and the girl next door

Did you hear the one about Tina
Some say she’s much too loose
That came straight from a guy who claims
He’s tasted her juice, did you hear the one about Michael?
Some say he must be gay I tried to argue

But they said if he was straight
He wouldn’t move that way
Did you hear that one about Susan?
Some say she’s just a tease in a camisole
She’s six feet tall, she’ll knock you to your knees

When you look at all these rumors surrounding
Me every day I just need some time, some time
To get away from from all these rumors
I can’t take it no more, my best friend said
There’s one out now about me and the girl next door

I can’t go no place without somebody
Pointing a finger I can’t show my face
â€~Cause when it comes to rumors I’m a dead ringer
It seems from rumors I just can’t get away

I’ll bet there’ll even be rumors floating around on
Judgment Day I’ll think I’ll write my congressman
And tell him to pass a bill, so the next time they catch
Somebody starting rumors, shoot to kill

When you look at all these rumors surrounding
Me every day I just need some time, some time
To get away from from all these rumors
I can’t take it no more, my best friend said
There’s one out now about me and the girl next door

What’s mine is mine, I ain’t got time for rumors
In my life I’m a man who thinks, not a man who drinks
So please let me live my life, what’s mine is mine
I ain’t got time for rumors in my life

Look at all these rumors
I’m a man who thinks, not a man who drinks
So please let me live my life what’s mine is mine
I ain’t got time for rumors in my life

Look at all these rumors
I’m a man who thinks, not a man who drinks
So please let me live my life

When you look at all these rumors surrounding
Me every day I just need some time, some time
To get away from from all these rumors
I can’t take it no more, my best friend said
There’s one out now about me and the girl next door

When you look at all these rumors surrounding
Me every day I just need some time, some time
To get away from from all these rumors
I can’t take it no more, my best friend said
There’s one out now about me and the girl next door

Stop, stop spreading those rumors around
Stop, stop spreading the lies
Stop, stop spreading those rumors around
Stop, stop spreading the lies

Stop, stop spreading those rumors around
Stop, stop spreading the lies
Stop, stop spreading those rumors around
Stop, stop spreading the lies

Stop, stop spreading those rumors
Around stop, stop spreading the lies

So much… So much… So much to do.

In the next few months, we will be quite busy here in the family.

We have a wedding in the middle of August, which just begun planning two weeks ago.

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April 2015, will be the my niece’s Quineanera, of which she refuses to plan and make decisions on anything.

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My sister will be going off and getting married, probably next year some time. Which we will have to plan also.

September the kids go back to school, and my son will be celebrating a birthday.

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October is Halloween, hmm… That should be pretty tame.

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November is Thanksgiving.

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December is Christmas.

January has New Years… Ugh… Most likely dateless. Okay, that will most likely be a good thing. 🙂

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February… Oh yes… Valentine’s Day. Yay (can you sense the sarcasm?)

March is my daughter’s birthday.

April is the niece’s Quinceanera.

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May is MY birthday… BIG IMPORTANT DAY. 😉

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June my D will be graduating from high school and the kids will be out for summer.

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July… Full on SUMMER and we have come full circle.

 

This song by Alabama pretty much sums it all!!!

I’m in a Hurry – in my case… I KNOW why. 🙂  Enjoy the song.

“I’m In A Hurry (And Don’t Know Why)” 
Lyrics provided by AZ Lyrics

I’m in a hurry to get things done
Oh I rush and rush until life’s no fun
All I really gotta do is live and die
But I’m in a hurry and don’t know why.

Don’t know why
I have to drive so fast
My car has nothing to prove
It’s not new
But it’ll do 0 to 60 in 5.2.

Oh I’m in a hurry to get things done
Oh I rush and rush until life’s no fun
All I really gotta do is live and die
But I’m in a hurry and don’t know why.

Can’t be late
I leave plenty of time
Shaking hands with the clock
I can’t stop
I’m on a roll and I’m ready to rock.

Oh I’m in a hurry to get things done
Oh I rush and rush until life’s no fun
All I really gotta do is live and die
But I’m in a hurry and don’t know why.

I hear a voice
That say’s I’m running behind
I better pick up my pace
It’s a race
And there ain’t no room
For someone in second place.

I’m in a hurry to get things done
Oh I rush and rush until life’s no fun
All I really gotta do is live and die
But I’m in a hurry and don’t know why.

I’m in a hurry to get things done
Oh I rush and rush until life’s no fun
All I really gotta do is live and die
But I’m in a hurry and don’t know why.

I’m in a hurry to get things done
Oh I rush and rush until life’s no fun
All I really gotta do is live and die
But I’m in a hurry and don’t know why.

I’m in a hurry to get things done
Oh I rush and rush until life’s no fun
All I really gotta do is live and die
But I’m in a hurry and don’t know why…

Never Enough

I’m posting from my cell and haven’t mastered the art of songs on here yet.

It’s just a venting post! !

Five Finger Death Punch – Never Enough:

“Never Enough”

I’m so fed up with everyone around me
No one seems to care
I’m just so far gone and nothing’s gonna change
I’ll never be the same
It’s always do this, do that, everything they want to
I don’t wanna live that way (No!)
Every chance they get they’re always pushing me away

It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
No matter what I say
It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
I’ll never be what you want me to be

It’s all so messed up and no one ever listens
Everyone’s deranged
I’m just so fucked up and I’m never gonna change
I wanna lay it all to waste
They’re always say this, say that, nothing that you want to
I don’t wanna live that way (No!)
Every chance they get they’re always shoving me aside

It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
No matter what I say
It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
I’ll never be what you want me to be
I’M DONE!

In the end we’re all just chalk lines on the concrete
Drawn only to be washed away
For the time that I’ve been given
I am what I am

I’d rather hate you for everything you are
Than ever love you for something you are not
I’d rather you hate me for everything I am
Than have you love me for something that I can’t

It’s never enough, it’s never enough
No matter what I say
It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
No matter who I try to be
It’s never enough, no it’s never enough
No matter how I try to change
It’s never enough, never never enough
I’ll never be what you want me to be

What I Know

Three simple words.

Funny when I read them, I feel I don’t really know anything. I’ve not been on much, truth be told, I have been struggling a bit; with myself, with my family, with my health, with life in general. I find that when I am struggling the most, it is when I am furthest away from God.

That – is what I know.

I need God in my life and some people may not like it, but I don’t care. I am me and I believe. I have faith. I trust in Him.

One day, I was looking up songs because I needed something. I found a song by Tricia Brock. The song was What I Know and I fell in love with the song immediately!! It was me! It was as if I sat down and poured out my soul on paper and someone put music to it. Of course, I didn’t… But it is how I feel.

I hope you find the song as moving and inspirational as it has been for me.

What I Know by Tricia Brock. Also available on the God’s Not Dead Soundtrack (Available on iTunes).

What I Know  (Lyrics from Songlyrics.com)

It’s been another day when it seems like faith eludes me
Everything’s been so confusing
Fear got the best of me
Now I’m lying here worried about tomorrow
‘cause the weight of everything I don’t know
Is so heavy I can’t sleep

But the truth remains the same
Even when I don’t know what to pray

But what I know
That You, my God are real
No matter what I feel
You’ve never let me go
And what I know
Is there will never be a day
You aren’t just a breath away
And through it all I’ve gotta hold
To what I know

I could throw my fist in the air demanding answers
But in spite of all the questions
I’m still giving You my life
And if it doesn’t turn out like I think it should
It doesn’t change the fact You’re always good
Your ways are higher than mine

And the truth remains the same
Even when I don’t know what to pray

But what I know
That You, my God are real
No matter what I feel
You’ve never let me go
And what I know
Is there will never be a day
You aren’t just a breath away
And through it all I’ve gotta hold

To love that’s never failing
To hope that keeps on saying
“carry on”, “carry on”

what I know
That You, my God are real
No matter what I feel
You’ve never let me go
And what I know
Is there will never be a day
You aren’t just a breath away
And through it all I’ve gotta hold
To what I know

Gonna hold to what I know……
What I know……
What I know……

All of Me

I came across this song awhile back and fell in love with it.

It has some powerful lyrics and I hope one day, the right man will sing it to me.

“All Of Me”

[Verse 1:]
What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You’ve got my head spinning, no kidding, I can’t pin you down
What’s going on in that beautiful mind
I’m on your magical mystery ride
And I’m so dizzy, don’t know what hit me, but I’ll be alright

[Pre-Chorus:]
My head’s under water
But I’m breathing fine
You’re crazy and I’m out of my mind

[Chorus:]
‘Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning
‘Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh

[Verse 2:]
How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you’re crying you’re beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I’m around through every mood
You’re my downfall, you’re my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can’t stop singing, it’s ringing, in my head for you

[Pre-Chorus:]
My head’s under water
But I’m breathing fine
You’re crazy and I’m out of my mind

[Chorus:]
‘Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning
‘Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh

[Bridge:]
Give me all of you
Cards on the table, we’re both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it’s hard

[Chorus:]
‘Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning
‘Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you

I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh

****

“Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections”

Those words… what more could a woman ask for.

Wishing everyone a romantic evening ~ DA

I Believe

This song means a lot to me. I hope it reaches whomever it needs to, because it has a powerful message!

“I Believe”

I believe if I knew where I was going I’d lose my way
I believe that the words that he told you are not your grave
I know that we are not the weight of all our memories
I believe in the things that I am afraid to sayHold on, hold onI believe in the lost possibilities you can see
And I believe that the darkness reminds us where light can be
I know that your heart is still beating, beating, darling
I believe that you fell so you would land next to me

‘Cause I have been where you are before
And I have felt the pain of losing who you are
And I have died so many times, but I am still alive

I believe that tomorrow is stronger than yesterday
And I believe that your head is the only thing in your way
I wish that you could see your scars turn into beauty
I believe that today it’s okay to be not okay

Hold on, hold on

‘Cause I have been where you are before
And I have felt the pain of losing who you are
And I have died so many times, but I am still alive

This is not the end of me, this is the beginning [x4]
(Hold on)
This is not the end of me, this is the beginning
(Hold on)
This is not the end of me, this is the beginning
(Hold on (I am still alive))
This is not the end of me, this is the beginning
(Hold on (I am still alive))
This is not the end of me, this is the beginning
(Hold on (I am still alive))
This is not the end of me, this is the beginning
(Hold on (I am still alive))
This is not the end of me, this is the beginning
(Hold on (I am still alive))
This is not the end of me, this is the beginning
(Hold on (I am still alive))
This is not the end of me, this is the beginning

 

*** This is not the end of me, this is the beginning***

Those last words will always get to me. No matter how hard he tried to destroy me, he did not end me… I’m still at MY beginning!!

Stay strong ~ DA